I am dealing with a lot right now, i am in counseling, and just about every night i want to cry. I do not want everything to get worse before it will get better. I just wish no one had to go through what i did. I fake everyday that i am fine, when i really just want to cry. Sometimes i just feel like i am all alone and i have no one i can go to. That's how my life was for fifteen years and i do not know how to remind myself i have so many friends a few in particular i could go to it's just really hard altogether and i am not ready for the rough road ahead.