Nov 20th,2015 4:52 am
The dream I had was blissful.I was in New York in Times Square meeting the love of my life for the first time.A sweet relief for me.My nana had called about 5 times.
”Why is she calling me knowing I'd be bout slumped.”The sleep had took over my voice.
“Tanya!Tanya!” My cousin was outside my moms window screaming.I peeked out of room standing at my door way.My mom let him in and he looked sad.Almost as if something had happened. Something bad.
”Tanya they got Beano.” He said as if they killed him.
“What are you talking about?” She questioned,like she didn't believe it.
“They killed Beano.” Those words crush me still to this day.I went in my room and cried.Then I began to pace. Back and forth.
”There is no way.” I whispered to myself.
I tried to console myself that it was a mistake and that he's still alive just wounded.My mother was a complete mess in the living room.My sisters weren’t really phased.They cried but it was a general reaction.
I got dressed for school.I was gone.I had just talked to him 4 days ago.A cold breeze from the winter wind didn't bother me today.Neither did the rain.The whole entire day,I felt dead.Not doing anything;almost as if in a trance.I wanted some sort of answer.Like a “why?” or at least who did it.My uncle had solo beef as I call it.He wasnt beefing wit nobody but everybody was beefing with him.
”Sometimes ignoring things isnt always the best option.” I thought to myself.

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Nov 24,2015 3:30pm
The funeral is being held on thanksgiving.I wasn’t able to attend however this is what I was told what happened.His friends were there.His girlfriend and his side chick were there.My Nana was there.She didn’t want to think about his death or anything like that.She didnt want to believe that her 2nd youngest son is dead.No fights happened everyone was too busy mourning.

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July 23rd,2016
It's lit. Today is the day of my uncle’s celebration of life party and I'm super excited.I mad sured that I slayed everything including my walk with my cousins because;not gon hold you my uncle had some cute friends.We had made all the food for the party thrusday,friday and saturday night.Was I beyond tired? Yes.But it was worth it.Once we got to the party lemme tell you……………………...Lit aint even the word.It was sha-bumping! Me and cousins was turnt,I took my baby cousin Lucciano to the duck pond and we fed the ducks bread.

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December 20th,2016
I miss my uncle terribly. I listen to his music to keep me motivated and keep pushing.I mean I do want both my diploma’s with him.So he could see that his Niecy (thats what he calls me) did her job at school and walked across that stage in her red bottoms;like she was supposed to.

#RIPTRILLWOPTHEREALWOP