Busy streets and city air
How clearly I can picture standing there
You kissed me
And told me I had no reason to be scared
And I believed you
Summer dreams turn to autumn air
And right before my eyes
A beautiful dream has turned to a nightmare
And our memories which I
Held so carefully before
Now are shattered on the floor
I never thought I’d lose myself
Not for you, not for anyone

After hours and city lights
How clearly I can picture driving
through the night
Just to be close to where you are
And that little red car
With a tell-tale license plate
I think you knew I was so afraid
But you were the reason I stayed
‘cause you promised (I heard) to stay close through it all
and it wasn’t a choice to lose myself
More like an accidental free fall

Bike rides and backyard games
How I remember getting lost in the woods again
You swore we’d always find our way home
I never thought I’d have to find it alone
Your birthday dance ‘round the kitchen
And the living room covered in autumn leaves
I told you you’re sweet
But I think what I meant was
You’re perfect for me
and it wasn’t a choice to lose myself
more like an accidental free fall



Now that you’re gone
It kills me to think that I could have been
The reason you left
But if it’s true that I wasn't
Than why wasn't I the reason you stayed?
And your life goes on, you seem just fine
While I’m stuck here in a past filled with you and I
I just wonder if I ever cross your mind
‘cause you, you’re constantly on mine
And I think you might find
You hurt me more than you could have seen
And you swear it’s not me
But than why wasn’t I
The reason you stayed?

Lonely streets and city lights
How empty the crowds all seem
When you’re not here with me
How clearly I can picture standing there
Once with you, now this time alone
Where we once kissed
And it’s the little details like this
My mind swears it regrets
But my heart won’t forget
And I try to stop thinking
But if I don’t think of this
Than what will be left?
And I never meant to lose myself
Not to you, not to anyone
But looking back I wouldn't change it at all
And it was never a choice to lose myself
But it was a beautiful free fall