I’m not good at Hellos

I’m not good at hellos.
I never have been,
I’m not one for greetings,
It’s not that I hate meetings,
I’m just not one for foreplay.
It’s not my forte.

So when I met you,
All I could really do
Was grunt a simple
“Hi…”
And then there were a few moments of
Awkward silence that went by
Before I continued.

I’m decent at conversation,
Topic to topic, debate to agreement,
With friend and enemy alike.
Like, sometimes we would skip
Introduction and prattle on
About the temperature of the sun
Or some other topic of little importance.

Eventually, we fell in love,
Our conversations started with an easy
Greeting. A kiss. Unfortunately,
Sometimes my kiss would miss,
And our meetings would end with a hug.

But times got tough.
I was well versed in topics that concerned me,
But little else. Eventually it got too rough,
And we had to say goodbye.
But one word is never enough.

I’m not good at goodbyes,
I could never fit enough
Emotion into just two syllables
Not enough heart into a single sentence that could never
Convey enough emotion to mean what I wanted to say.

You could just leave me,
But unfortunately,
For me it’s not that simple.
Goodbye could never mean
What I mean to say.
So today I write this poem to tell you

I’m not good at goodbyes.

Allow me to elaborate
I could never easily collaborate
With anybody else but you
To me you were the only thing that was true
I never could do
Anything with anybody as easily as with you
You were the only person I knew after school
And that was cool

But now
We don’t get to say wedding vows
As I had originally planned
We became drawings in the sand
And the wind comes by
Scouring your eyes
To blind you to everything I would try to say.
So today
I write this to properly convey
That I can never say goodbye.

Do you know how many people I turned away?
The people I can’t spend today with
Because I had to turn down everybody to stay faithful to you?
AND YOU JUST SAY “GOODBYE?”

I AM NOT GOOD AT GOODBYES!!!