your glances burned beneath my fingers every slice.

i buy your insecurities, dripping with the price.

your words made every scar darken a shade.

always inadequate, forget how much i'd paid.

i danced like a fool, you were not entertained.

and i sang till i fainted, not once were you phased.

i've tallied a mark for my every mistake.

for every single time i thought i would break.

every stupid awkward bumbling phrase

and stutter, whimper, numb-faced daze

every tear i pulled back into my dead glaze

just to earn a gold drop of your genuine praise

why do i try like this?

think i could die like this...

tried not to cry like this...

when i tried to commit suicide you were mad

you stood and went off at me right in front of dad

it's funny that i pulled you up that night

right in the midst of fighting for my life

so i'm not the cookie shape you wanted

and i will never be the girl you flaunted

just a freak covered in scars

"i kind of wish she wasn't ours"

every time that you told me to cover with sleeves

every time that I left when I started to bleed

every word you threw on to the fire you feed

and feed and feed and FEED AND FORCE FEED

a thousand times over today I am freed

a thousand times over I'm not prey to your greed

a thousand times over we are not the same breed

a thousand times over for when I impede

I AM YOUR CHILD AND I AM IN NEED.

i will not listen. i have already heard.

i will not blead till my vision is blurred

i will not cut till my speach becomes slurred

i will never again be defined by your word