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I am plastic smiles and hollow bones

December 17, 2015
By josephinejkoch BRONZE, Philadelphia, Pennsylvania
josephinejkoch BRONZE, Philadelphia, Pennsylvania
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I am plastic smiles and hollow bones.
I wonder if these futures are fake,
With hushed words,hungered and alone
I see glass, it can’t help but break
I want to live and not just survive
Scraping by

I pretend to be harsh, funny, mean
I’ll be the manic pixie of your dreams.
i feel everything tangible but nothing at all
Feel the edge of your feet, about to fall
I touch your hand.
It’s quite nice,
When you’re warm and I’m cold as ice

I worry what I weigh,
That I’m what my demons say,
Ugly, annoying, sl*t
Filled with anger, full of smut.
I cry when I laugh, plasticine
I’m really just asking to leave.

I understand how you feel, I do
When you’ve been as low as me,
It’s all you know how to
I say I’m happy, alright
“There’s a light at the end of the tunnel,”
I know
But it’s easy to tell and hard to show

I dream about a place out of my head,
A full night’s sleep in a cozy bed.
I try to live in normalcy,
It’s taken its toll on me.
I hope I have another face,
Out of body, a different place,
At the end of the day, everything’s the same,
I am plastic smiles and hollow bones.


The author's comments:

This was originally a school project but I was inspired by the personal nature of the piece and brought it very close to home. Its inspired by the struggles I am facing with myself and my situation at this time.


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