I go to bed and wake up saying “I hate life”
Then I question what kind of Christian am I to seek satisfaction form this World?
Yet, understand, I am still human
I have wants, desires, and dreams
I do rely on God
I try to push away the thoughts that tell me I need more
But when you see people who supposedly love, argue
When you get socks for Christmas
And your friends get games, gaming systems, baking supplies
You go on Facebook, hoping someone will talk to you
It’s Christmas Eve, Christmas, day after
But yet the feelings of needing people, things yet not wanting to interact
Interacting with other human can be painful
I feel like even little kids reject me and that’s supposed to be my “thing”
Anxiety, social and general life
Lyffffffffffffffe
I’m so unmotivated
So tired from doing nothing
What is my purpose?
How do I live on?
I’m not ready
I have the EQ of a 5 year old