You say
“That class
depressed
me to no end.”
like the word
“depressed”
means the same
as “sad”
or
as “down”.

I wish
I could show
you the time
when
I barely went
to school.
My friends,
who saw me
two days a week,
jokingly asked
if I was dead
not knowing
that I wished
I was.

I wish
I could show
you the time
when
I took four
showers a
day
because nothing
interested me.
You can stand
in the shower
for an hour
and after
no one
will even
bother to ask
why your hair
isn't washed.

I wish
I could show
you the time
when
I got
headaches
every day because
depression
physically hurts.

I wish
I could show
you the time
when
I sobbed
on the
bathroom floor
because
I had a
bottle of
pills
next
to
me
and I was
trying to
convince
myself
not
to
take
them
all
and end this
nightmare.

I wish
I could show
you the time
when
I went to
a psychologist
every week
and was
ashamed of
it.

But now,
these days,
I can show
you the
pills
I take
everyday
so I might
only feel
“sad”
or
“down”

Because these
words don’t
have the same
meaning as
“depressed”.