Looking back to where I’ve come from
I’ve never thought this is what I would become
I always knew I was different but never special
Always walking in the sidelines, never been someone
The world to me was black and blue
The same color to these bruises and wounds
I only had a broken heart for me to feel
Lived in a nightmare and wished nothing is real
I see shadows of figures I’ve never ever known
The crowd was there, but I’ve always felt alone
I could hear laughter but never knew how to take it in
All they ever seemed to me were endless crying screams
People would dance, and I would just stare
I wonder how this body would move against the air
I gave up before I even knew I was up against
I was weak, useless, defenseless wreck
The sun would someday go down on me
But up until then, I still wouldn’t know how it is to live
I wonder if I have always been like this
Life is not to live as existence is not to exist
All the door came closing in
Leaving me with nowhere to begin
Before I could know what was on the other side
I was trapped within my empty life
At times like these when I know there’s nothing left
All there is to see are nothingness and darkness
I would close and open my eyes but not know the difference
Innocently wondering what has been and what is
I could hear something beating in my chest
But I don’t know what it is because I have never felt
If this is what it would be if I try to be myself
Then I would willingly accept to become someone else
Why did they leave me all so hopeless
Why didn’t anyone show me how to live, I would have been worth it
The needed more of sunshine than rain
One precious life could have erased all the pain
Now I’ walking straight down the road
Never knew where I came from, let alone where to go
I vow that I would someday find myself free
Dear God, I know You can hear me