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Your Heart Was My Home Until You Handed Me an Eviction Notice MAG

November 15, 2008
By amanda.bower SILVER, Stacy, Minnesota
amanda.bower SILVER, Stacy, Minnesota
9 articles 2 photos 10 comments

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maybe i know that you'll crave my secure arms someday, but i'll have come across someone who wasn't afraid. and that's why i can't let go.


I removed the layers of blankets from my aching bones
to excavate the secrets that were held together by saliva
in papier-mâché envelopes, only to chew on disappointments
and lie on shards of fragile stained glass that tampered with my flaws,
instead of putting me back together with multicolored duct tape
so gray was only found inside of my body.

I wrung the tears from your sweatshirt and decided it was time
to give it back to you, in exchange for my serpent heart

[barely beating,

barely breathing];
instead of curling inside your stomach and making you
nearly as ill as I had become, just by drinking venomous nectar
and digesting fireflies so a small portion of me would feel alive,
I climbed over your picket fence and let you recline my eyes
in another awkward position to the point where I only chain-smoked
the main exhibits of your aesthetic proportions and declined
every deficiency of the person you truly are,


i. blunt



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on Apr. 13 2010 at 2:44 pm
Emiliegh BRONZE, Boulder, Colorado
3 articles 1 photo 3 comments

Favorite Quote:
“We all die. The goal isn't to live forever, the goal is to create something that will.” - Chuck Palahniuk

You are very talented!

on Apr. 13 2010 at 2:05 pm
WonderDreamer23 BRONZE, Maplewood, Minnesota
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Favorite Quote:
Shut Up and Live I am the most sexiest thing that happened to you and i know you know it.

I LOVE IT!

on Apr. 13 2010 at 2:04 pm
WonderDreamer23 BRONZE, Maplewood, Minnesota
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Favorite Quote:
Shut Up and Live I am the most sexiest thing that happened to you and i know you know it.

i know this is great i mean seriously i love it

on Apr. 13 2010 at 1:43 pm
amanda.bower SILVER, Stacy, Minnesota
9 articles 2 photos 10 comments

Favorite Quote:
maybe i know that you'll crave my secure arms someday, but i'll have come across someone who wasn't afraid. and that's why i can't let go.

the rest of the poem -->

i. blunt & manipulative; prohibiting your alluring
smile for the world to capture with trembling fingers and
impossible to revail with these splintered muscles.

ii. satisfying & destructive; pinning needles against my spine so you had advantage against my numbing pain to
toss me a small amount of your ego, which was nothing more
than a breakage of skin to make yourself seem 'powerful'

[maybe I wanted more than that.]

I've been soaking in inevitability from the tenderness of your skin,
while regret dripped off my hands like baby oil and you insisted on
pouring buckets of water to awaken my senses, only to realize that water didn't mix well with oil, and you didn't mix well with me.
So I've tripped over my own two feet and played childish games
day after day & month after month, and I was convinced that maybe
it was time to take a step outside your boundaries, because months were passing like seconds, and I didn't comply enough seconds to embrace my innocence forever.

& we knew that when the leaves broke from the tree branches
that it was time to let each other go, and discover the people we'll eventually measure up to be.

-truth betold, I wasn't falling at your knees anymore, nor was I capable of it, but the memories are on 'repeat' inside of my head, and my fingers are too cold & too weak to reach out & press 'stop'.


You'll always be dawning over my shoulder, that's a given that comes with caring about you so much, and eventually, whether it's a minute too late [tragic] or a day too soon [conclusive], you'll end up thinking about me, just as much as I think about you.


yellowbunny said...
on Apr. 13 2010 at 12:34 pm
yellowbunny, Windsor, Vermont
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Can you post the rest? i want to see how it ends :) really good!

Aaliyah said...
on Apr. 13 2010 at 12:06 pm
Aaliyah, New York City, New York
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this is really good! :))

on Apr. 13 2010 at 10:39 am
live.create16 GOLD, Dedham, Maine
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Far away there in the sunshine are my highest aspirations. I may not reach them, but I can look up and see their beauty, believe in them, and try to follow where they lead. <br /> - Louisa May Alcott.

this is amazing!!!!

on Apr. 13 2010 at 9:03 am
wow, good poem

abbers9797 said...
on Apr. 13 2010 at 8:38 am
Great poem! You're really talented.

on Apr. 13 2010 at 6:05 am
Dunkelheitstieg BRONZE, Baldwin, Florida
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&quot;The poet ranks far below the painter in the representation of visible things, and far below the musician in that of invisible things. Why does the eye see a thing more clearly in dreams than the imagination when awake?,&quot;Leonardo da Vinci.

Nothing much. So,Rob H. what's up w\ u?

on Apr. 13 2010 at 6:04 am
Dunkelheitstieg BRONZE, Baldwin, Florida
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&quot;The poet ranks far below the painter in the representation of visible things, and far below the musician in that of invisible things. Why does the eye see a thing more clearly in dreams than the imagination when awake?,&quot;Leonardo da Vinci.

This is amzing and when i first got teenink magazine's your poem was in the issue and i wanted to get my poems in there cuz of your's!:)

on Apr. 10 2010 at 6:46 pm
MeghanMichelle GOLD, Hooksett, New Hampshire
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Amazing. Absolutely truly amazing.

on Mar. 25 2010 at 8:49 am
Alisha62293 BRONZE, Warwick, Rhode Island
2 articles 1 photo 30 comments

Favorite Quote:
&quot;A man who dares to waste one hour of time has not discovered the value of life.&quot; Charles Darwin

I really like this. Your word choice is amazing!

on Mar. 23 2010 at 6:11 pm
Taylor-pop SILVER, Mole Creek, Other
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Favorite Quote:
Real friends are like diamonds true and rare.<br /> Fake friends are like autumn leaves found everywhere.

Your poem is also kinda weird in a way it dosen't make to much sense!

on Mar. 23 2010 at 6:10 pm
Taylor-pop SILVER, Mole Creek, Other
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Favorite Quote:
Real friends are like diamonds true and rare.<br /> Fake friends are like autumn leaves found everywhere.

Wow that was beautiful your use of words are really interesting! well done keep up the good work! (=

on Mar. 23 2010 at 6:10 pm
Taylor-pop SILVER, Mole Creek, Other
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Real friends are like diamonds true and rare.<br /> Fake friends are like autumn leaves found everywhere.

You comment is rude and not called for if you don't like it then don't comment on it save other people the pain.

on Mar. 23 2010 at 12:46 pm
amanda.bower SILVER, Stacy, Minnesota
9 articles 2 photos 10 comments

Favorite Quote:
maybe i know that you&#039;ll crave my secure arms someday, but i&#039;ll have come across someone who wasn&#039;t afraid. and that&#039;s why i can&#039;t let go.

yeah, there is actually more to the poem, but for some reason it got cut off when i submitted it so the ending doesn't make much sense.

on Mar. 22 2010 at 8:33 pm
Lovely:) SILVER, Clarendon, Texas
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Favorite Quote:
Laugh as much as you breath and love as long as you live.

Same here! Amazing

on Mar. 22 2010 at 5:51 pm
Madison_Speaks GOLD, Buff Bay, Portland, Other
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Favorite Quote:
Courage is the power to break free from the familiar

This is amazing. I hope to publish something nearly as good as this one day

on Mar. 22 2010 at 4:45 pm
kodyz_angel PLATINUM, Onsted, Michigan
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Favorite Quote:
if happiness seems more like a fantasy than a reality its because the tears are blinding you from the light that is trying to shine through<br /> by:me

i didnt really get the ending. but i liked it for the most part.