On the outside I might seem:
Joyous
Energetic
Crazy
Intelligent
Confident
But on the inside, the true me, I am
Depressed
Lethargic
Sadly Normal
Mediocre
Insecure
I want to be what I seem to be
But I can't
I do have some good things about me but I rarely notice them.
Sometimes my friends are the ones who make me feel like crap.
My self-esteem is as big as an electron; and I’m the one who can make me feel worse. The saying “My own worst enemy” couldn’t be truer in this scenario. I like me the way I am, usually, but because of things that happened with some old friends of mine I began to wonder about myself
Is it me?
Is it my fault so many people leave me?
I'm scared to be myself because of it.
The two sides of me are fighting like North and South Korea.
The part that likes me the way I am and the part that's scared that my personality is why my loved ones leave me.
I shelter my heart from anymore ache by just not letting anyone in who wasn't already in my heart.
I am not afraid to admit that at times I've been so depressed that I've cut.
I can say this because I'm past that part of my life and I will not be going back.