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The Gradual Distortion of Happiness

October 28, 2013
By LamieJamie1107 BRONZE, Littleton, Colorado
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LamieJamie1107 BRONZE, Littleton, Colorado
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"It's true that crying unexpectedly does make you feel better. When you're an adult you forget that. I started crying and it was the first time I felt forgiven. Like I was saved. Like the frozen snow melted by spring and the tears wouldn't stop."

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I am the undesirable
I am the unwanted
and what a horrible feeling it is.
What used to be my sanctuary
I've morphed into my shackles;
the weight around my ankles
exhausting every last breath of my being,
reminds me of what I once had
and what I turned it into.
But what is more painful then to say
you loved something
and turn to despise it
yet refuse to give up the one thing
that defines who you are
not giving a care if t breaks you.
Not caring if you cry
for every tear serves a purpose
to silently release the noise drowning you.

© Sandy H., Woodbridge, CT

The author's comments:
This piece is about a group I had joined where I thought I belonged but it ended up crushing my self-esteem to the point I could barely do it anymore. I just couldn't leave it because for once I had something that defined me as a person and I had a group to belong to whether they wanted me there or not. I'm still in it and still can't bring myself to quit and it honestly is eating me alive. That's the price you pay I suppose.
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