I'm thinking night and day
but there is nothing left to say
Too many notions
giving me conflicting emotions.
So close to gaining everything I thought I desired
but at the same time losing everything I hoped I would have acquired.
My actions are shown by the marks on my skin.
They are supposed to prevent the mistake I keep making over and over again.
I am covered by permanent stains
because the pain I caused still remain.
I feel like everything is slipping away.
I wish someone could tell me why I feel this way.
I am running out of places to hide.
This time there is more at risk than my foolish pride.
The pain in my chest full of dread is growing
with the changes that my life seems to be undergoing.
My apologies I send for the pain I did not intend.
Will I approach my winners circle or the feared dead end.