They say I need to forgive
for the pain to heal
I’ve forgiven,
yet the pain still seems so real
How can y'all continue to believe it’s okay
yet, I’m this way
How can I unite these people
and the depths of my pain they not see
How do I just forget the person who tried to consummate
My blood with the sickness that now consume My Sister and My mother
and am I to smile and be happy
Because I was protected by the Blood of Jesus
and that demon failed to infect me
For all that I do must the right thing hurt so damn bad
Why does the thing that almost took my life
Smile at me everyday like all is okay
and I am to give my praise and glory to God
because he protected me when the devil I let in to my house tried to kill me
because I am anointed by Christ
I must forgive those who trespass against me
and I have forgiven this anointed man of God
It doesn’t mean the pain will leave
I wish I had kept the walls up, and not allowed them to fall
I wish I was strong enough to lift not just myself but the world
I wish I didn’t embrace what other people feel
I wish my heart didn’t act bigger than what it is
I wish the pain would go away
I wish the devil would stop tempting me
I wish the walking a righteous path in God
didn’t mean the devils and his demons didn’t greet me at every door
I pray that on this road to deliverance that God continue to watch over me, Because My
armor is on and I’m on my way to the enemies camp, Satan Get Behind Me because
VICTORY TODAY IS MINE!!!
Even though the Journey God is taking me on isn’t done...THE BATTLE IS ALREADY WON