Damn man,
didn’t know I’d be here again
Didn’t know this pain would be make me ill again
Here I am so many roads to the future
and I don’t know what direction to steer in
I was free from pain, I was free from hurt
but my freedom was short lived
After all I give
God the devil is here
He knocking at my front door again
Heavenly father, this time I’m not up for the battle
Like the serpent he is
he’s wrapped tight round my neck
Father God, I asked why you’ve left me
Here on this wretched Planet called Earth
That Calm I’ve found recently in life
can be turned into chaos
How could the enemy enter in to my sanctuary
Threaten to consume me
Lord why now does the silence of death
Scream yet again in my ear
when it hadn’t done so in years
why so many fake friends try to entrap me
I thought from the devil God you had unleashed me
Yet again his chains have hold on me
This fight I won’t even try and win
The natural born fighter in me died
Gone like the calm before a storm
How in the planet,
can you find order from chaos
how can whats done above
also so be done below
Your will in heaven be done on earth
This pain is to great
My flood gates have broken
on these tears I’m choking
when all my breath was gone
like a vampire fangs
life sunk it’s teeth in me
And now I breathe again
this same old s***** life
This calm formed back into chaos
and Life’s s***** clay
Became molded the same damn way
I am not a child anymore
I have grown to believe
It will all come around again
Life is Chaotic
anyone whose had a standing chance at it has learned that very lesson
Heavenly father this of you I ask,
In life,
Help Me find Order from Chaos