"Life has many tragedies but you choose to make memories"- Me

Looking back, reliving situations makes me cry,
it makes me think of the last time my mom said "Good bye."
I don't have anyone I can call mommy I haven't for 19 years,
during the night all that falls are my tears.
My family and my heart are broken,
it so hard to be so open.
No one in my family understand the pain,
and why I want to be in the rain.
Not once have I heard my mom say "I'm proud of you." She makes me feels so blue.
Please don't be a hater,
instead talk to your waiter.
Just because I smile,
it doesn't mean I have the perfect life style.