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Just one Touch

March 11, 2013
By Anonymous

Just one Touch
Doesn't make a difference
To the police,
Or their interviewer
Sitting on front of me
With her piercing questions
And her darting, judging eyes,
Right?

Just one Touch
Doesn't make a difference
To the man
Who started it all,
Who shouldn't have
With his shifty gaze
And deep staring eyes
That will never be forgotten,
Ever.

Just one Touch
Doesn't make a difference
Or at least that's what
I tell myself.
It couldn't have changed
Anything,
And anyway,
That was all years ago.
No one cares about
Just one Touch
Now.

Just one Touch
The memory that burns
And burns forever.
Drowning your thoughts in
Flames and flashbacks
Of huge, strong hands
Hungry, thirsty
That grope at your waist
And start from there
Thick, authoritative
And then there was me,
Who wanted to run,
And run
And run.

Just one Touch
Makes all the difference
To a young girl
So scared and
So
So
Alone.
Innocence, faith, trust,
All gone.

Just one Touch
More than enough
To plague a mind
That once was free
To tie it up
And bind it
And let it never forget
What happened.


The author's comments:
When I was eleven years old, I was sexually assaulted by a friend's father. Later, there was a questioning, and I said nothing of the incident, because I was such a scared, scared little child and he had only really touched me the one time, and in my head, seeing as it was not rape, it didn't matter. They wouldn't care, I told myself. No one would care, I said. It wouldn't make a spot of difference, I thought. I was so ashamed. To this day, I regret not telling the police what happened.
Please, if you have ever been through a similar experience as I have, or if you ever do, then you need to tell someone you can trust as soon as possible. Don't do what I did, and pretend it never happened, and hope that it will just go away. It won't just go away. It will stay with you. For years. Over four years later it still hurts me, though I'm starting to heal because I opened up about it to a close friend, and then another, and now it doesn't seem as shameful as it did. Sexual assault is never your fault. I'm always here for anyone who needs support. Let's join together and be there for each other. Stay strong, everyone.

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on Oct. 2 2013 at 1:45 am
isimplywish BRONZE, Christchurch, Other
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Thank you, it means a lot to me. Thankfully, after many many years I have recovered from the worst of the repercussions, but I am currently battling my own demons with depression and anxiety and I truly believe that my molestation was the start of it all. Writing was possibly the biggest contributor to my recovery from this experience and it continues to help me every day. Thank you again, it really does mean a lot to me - and stay strong :)

on Oct. 2 2013 at 1:44 am
isimplywish BRONZE, Christchurch, Other
2 articles 0 photos 19 comments
Thank you, it means a lot to me. Thankfully, after many many years I have recovered from the worst of the repercussions, but I am currently battling my own demons with depression and anxiety and I truly believe that my molestation was the start of it all. Writing was possibly the biggest contributor to my recovery from this experience and it continues to help me every day. Thank you again, it really does mean a lot to me - and stay strong :)

on Mar. 21 2013 at 1:14 am
clumsyteardropper SILVER, Roslyn, Pennsylvania
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Favorite Quote:
"You can't help others, if you yourself need help" -my sister ;) love it!

Oh my goodness, honey, that's awful. This was written so well, I know what you mean. I've been molested, recently and a long time ago. I didn't think I should tell any, either, and I regret it too. Stay strong, lots of love