Hidden away
drapes pulled closed from the hurt of the world
from the people that call me stupid and ugly
or when the life i had I ruined
I form a sheet of hardened skin to protect
to protect from the pain
the words people spew

But there are cracks I have in that skin of mine
holes in the drapes
where happiness shine through like rays of hope




or
the laughter I have with friends
when music speaks over the howling of my world
the cracks and holes grow smaller with the words of today's people say



the way they treat me





I try





I do




I try to be...





up beat





happy




full of laughter



I am at points in my life

I let the drapes open
I start to shed that hardened skin
i'm exposed to the world and its Whirl wind of words
i'm exposed when the people i'm close to hurt me
say i'm stupid and ugly
so I close the drapes
and dawn the hardened skin again


No one knows WHO I AM
No one knows the real me!
they see the act I put on, the show everyone has come to see
while the real me watches and waits for someone to wait long enough to let me open the drapes and shed the hardened

to step off the stage



I AM HIDDEN
I am hidden
I watch and listen for this is me I wait, watch,listen,care






but I am always hidden






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