Smile pretty
all the time
from day to night
be jealous of my picture perfect life

be jealous of everything i have
everyone who loves me
be jealous of everything i lack
everyone who couldn't care less

be jealous of all my fabulous experiences
all I've been through
be jealous of all my adoring friends
who stab me in the back

be jealous of my connections
the ones that always happen to fail
the ones that let me down
the connections that connect me to pain

be jealous of my breath taking home
the home that traps me everyday
the trap I can never escape
the trap I'm returned to if found in the outside

I'm jealous of how you have space to breathe
I'm jealous of the people in your life who actually care
I'm jealous of the relationship you have with your family
I'm jealous of the love you receive everyday

I smiled
You believed it;
The illusion i painted on my face
And for that
I am the greatest artist that ever lived