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The Love I Want
I want the puppy love
The kind of love where we freak out even if we hug.
The kind of love where we already see our futures as together
Because I already see it, the stable love—
The house with the two-story floors
With the children playing on the lawn.
One a boy, with the same name as my father
The other, a girl, she will have the name that I picked out as a child.
And both will have their last hyphenated between yours and mine
And you will hold me in your arms, and whisper in my ear
‘This is the life’
The very same one that we dreamed about all those years ago.
Because I want the love like the movies—
Where you kiss me the same way Jimmy Stewart would,
When you grab onto my shoulders, pulling me in tight, that somehow makes my head turn back
To make me look like a turtle,
Though the most unflattering position
It looks like the kiss has passion
And I want that passion
I want that passion for the whole world to see.
But I don’t get that love,
I get the hidden love
I get the secret love.
The kinda of love when the eyes are on us,
You can’t help but loosen your grip of my hand in yours,
Till it slowly separates
For us to get the title—
We were the roommates
We were the best friends
We were the oddly close friends.
The kinda of love where you have to run away to stay next to me.
The kinda of love where your parents wouldn’t walk you down the aisle because you know they would disapprove of me,
The child that turned their perfect daughter into a Q-U-E-E-R.
But why does that matter
We are one out of the hundreds,
One out of the thousands,
One out of the millions,
One out of the billions,
So why is it only in the dark
When no one can see
We can stay close to me,
where
Fingers graze
Fingers touch
Fingers interlock
Fingers hold hands
Hands hold hands.
Within the dark
No one will see
No one will know
And that solitude between only you and I
I get the love that I want.
But when I look into your eyes, I can’t help but imagine our future,
Because I already see it—
The white house with the two-story floors
The one that we adore,
With the children playing on the lawn
One a boy, he will have the same name as my father the one that has been passed down for three generations somehow stopping at my sister,
The other will be a girl, she will have the name that I picked out as a child but instead go by another that ends with a y always getting misspelled with an ie.
Both with a last name hyphenated to be yours and mine.
Where you look around and smile at the home that we didn’t have to run away to create
And you kiss me the same way like Jimmy Stewart would
With the same passion that I always wished for.
Holding me in your arms as you whisper in my ear
‘This is the life’
The one we aren’t able to have.
Cause It's only in my dreams that I get the puppy love, the stable love, the love like the movies,
But I don’t care about that love.
I just want you to love me
I want you to love me like good memory
As we live for what we believe is eternity.
And when I pass
I want you to look at the grave
With the scratches and carves into the stone that spells out my name
With the last as only mine
Because I want you to look, I want you to think I was worth it,
I was worth every second
I was worth every minute
I was worth every hour
I was worth every day
I was worth every week
I was worth every month
I was worth every year
I was worth all those years.
Because all I want is your love
I don’t need no variation
Cause in the end
You are mine
I am yours
And thats the love I want
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The love I want, is half of my desire of the love I want but also highlights the hardships of being in a queer relationship. How many time we aren’t able to have what is seen as a normal relationship due to the fact we know that we can get hate crimes or our families would kick us out. But it also highlights the beauty of being in a relationship with someone you really love the tiny moments of knowing right now you have them.