coping whats that, 

medication, 

meditation , 

pop those pills and just listen to me, 

I'm stuck in past and I'm worried bout future, 

just step outside and act like you are fine, 

paint a pretty picture on your face, 

just make sure you cover up the lack of sleep, 

hide behind the smile that you force on your face, 

hearing from everybody that you're such a big disgrace, 

I'm not happy now but it's better than what it's been, 

I'm still scared to truly live, 

I'm running from my problems cause there is no healthy way to cope, 

stop eating so much it won't stop the pain, 

it won't keep you sane , 

I'm just tryna get through life without making a scene, 

I was raised with dramatics but still these tears aren't fake, 

trust me I know I was a goddamn mistake, 

I'm not some perfect kid but I'm better than what I've been, 

I'm trying to say how am I supposed to cope when I get new stress

every single second