I remember that day 

It was a blur 

So Cold 

So Sad

So Awful 

One day you were fine 

The next you were dead 

I remember that blue plaid jacket

and

All those cigarettes

You loved them and hated them

 But they made you

Your voice 

It eludes me 

If only I could remember that 

and 

NOT THAT DAY

I remember when we had fun 

When we played chess 

When we ate together 

When we laughed together 

When you scolded me 

When you forgave me 

When you picked me up 

When I gave you a hug 

YET

Your voice 

It eludes me 

If only I could remember that 

and 

NOT THAT DAY

When you left I felt so much pain 

My body felt numb

I wanted to scream for you 

but 

Nothing came out 

Your voice 

It eludes me 

If only I could remember that 

and 

NOT THAT DAY

I wanted to cry 

but 

I had to stay strong for them 

 Family 

They needed me

Your voice 

It eludes me 

If only I could remember that 

and 

NOT THAT DAY

I never wanted to say goodbye 

So

I NEVER DID

I believe you will always be with me 

I believe you will guide me 

I believe you will make me better 

I believe you will heal me 

I believe you will show me the world 

I hope I can talk to you again one day 

One day I will see you 

Whether it is my time 

OR

You come to me 

I WILL

Talk to you one more time