This piece represents the struggle and confusion of feeling overwhelmed by decisions and not knowing which way to turn. With so many options the only thing you are seeking is the feeling of true freedom without any fear of judgment. Wishing you didn't need to always be prepared for everything and not let yourself relax. So because of it, you fall prey to the suffering of addiction, and all you want to imagine being is a bottle in the ocean fighting against everything but never affected. More careless about the whole world than you could ever be. The feeling of longing to be that careless is so strong it is all you can think about to help distract and block out all of the things you need to do when you finally jump back to reality.

What I hope people take away from this piece is that no matter how overwhelmed you might feel or pressured surrounded by tasks. Never let someone invalidate your right to take a break and sit back because it is always ok to not need to have everything under control and set in stone. And to always know you are allowed to be vulnerable and do not need to be perfect. Which is why when I wrote this I hoped it would bring more awareness to these very serious problems and feelings many people struggle with.