I’ve never felt knocked out by a smile

A pair of glasses lying crookedly on a nose

A white button up shirt

But when my heart was dying and my breath was coming too shallow, and I finally found you, there you were, smiling, not knowing that you’d just landed the final blow

It felt like I couldn’t talk, couldn’t look at you

I’d seen your face what feels like hundreds of times

And i’d been breathless by it before

But you knocked me out that day

And then i had to sit there, breaking myself apart in front of you, trying to recover while also knowing i wouldn’t for awhile

I wasn’t prepared to find you even more amazing the day i knew i’d ruin everything