emotionless

hopelessness

for me there is no

happiness

ever day is harder than the last

and all of this started due to my past

2010

my mom became a lier

my dad killed himself

as he pulled the rope

higher and higher

2011

my mom didnt care 

she was poppin pills

but sure her life was unfair

2012

she started to change

i had my hopes held high

only to find out

she had relapsed 

for the third time

2013

she moved into my house

into the only home ive ever known

and i thought i could be happy

oh i tryed and i tryed

2014-2017

i couldnt deal anymore

no matter what i did

i felt like my heart

was on the floor

2018

things are starting to pass

tho ive had my ups and downs

and lifes been kicking my ass

i can still be happy

cause this is all just a portion

of my life which is very vast

so now my  harships can finally 

begin to pass

TODAY

within my life

within my heart

all my bad feelings

can finally depart

cause why give up

why give in

its not enough

what ever is 

but i will push on untill the end

cause what is the point

if life is all we got

REASON

im telling you this 

not to show out

but to say how i feel

when in my eyes

there is no way out

within my life 

ive had some struggles

not everyones is all

gum drops and cuddles

most oof the time

i cry and cry

other times i wish

i would just go ahead and die

but even tho i cry 

even tho i have struggles

i will pust through 

cause that is all i can do

so even if i have to fake a smile

even if i have to lie 

i will make it through 

cause u may not know me

but that is what i do