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Part of my Life

January 16, 2011
By littlelilith SILVER, Dallas, Texas
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"Your perspective may very well be the determining factor in whether you pass the test."

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The first time I cut myself
It was just a test
To see if I could handle it
I didn’t do my “best”

The second time I did it
It released some pain
“But after this,” I told myself
“I won’t do it again.”

I didn’t keep that promise
This went on for several years
Until my parents heard of it
And they were in great fear

But they thought I could stop it
So they got me some help
But the self-harm continued
I was making their lives Hell

So one day they decided
To send me away
The first day I was there
I didn’t want to stay

This place was my boarding school
Though I can’t tell you the name
It’s quite renowned in Utah
And I hated it for its fame

I faked it for a little while
Said I was alright
But I knew they were catching on
And I knew they were right

Then one day it happened
My very violent act
A slapped my friend way to hard
And then I turned my back

But that’s not where this story ends
‘Cause then I got a rope
Determined to hang myself
Because I felt no hope

Good thing someone caught me
‘Cause now I’m glad I didn’t die
I haven’t said this before
But I tried to several times

I gradually got better
And then one day I heard
I’d be going home in three months
That news shook my world

Now I’m home and healthy
Though I still feel pain
I know how to deal with it
I’ll never hurt myself again

© Jeanette M., Phoenix, AZ

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Mickey17 SILVER said...
on Apr. 23 2013 at 4:27 pm
Mickey17 SILVER, Life, Wisconsin
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that was amazing proud of you for telling your story. wish i could
Stella_Val_Illicia GOLD said...
on Oct. 12 2012 at 8:59 pm
Stella_Val_Illicia GOLD, Salt Lake City, Utah
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I think that this is undoubtedly the most moving poem I have read in forever, and that you are very courageous to have written it and shared your story. You are an inspiration to people who have had the same problem.
Stella_Val_Illicia GOLD said...
on Oct. 12 2012 at 8:59 pm
Stella_Val_Illicia GOLD, Salt Lake City, Utah
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I think that this is undoubtedly the most moving poem I have read in forever, and that you are very courageous to have written it and shared your story. You are an inspiration to people who have had the same problem.
KatsK DIAMOND said...
on May. 3 2012 at 5:49 pm
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I'm really sorry that all of that happened to you. I really like this and you are a good writer, by th eway.
littlelilith SILVER said...
on Jul. 17 2011 at 9:07 am
littlelilith SILVER, Dallas, Texas
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Hey, actually, can you tell me how you found it? for some reason I thought tumblr was that website where you can find random other websites. That was most definitely NOT me. xP FAIL.
littlelilith SILVER said...
on Jul. 16 2011 at 8:07 pm
littlelilith SILVER, Dallas, Texas
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Oh yeah, I have a blog too LOL it was probably just me. :)
.Izzy. BRONZE said...
on Jul. 6 2011 at 9:23 pm
.Izzy. BRONZE, Broadview Heights, Ohio
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Hi again! I was on tumblr and I saw that someone put your poem on their blog. Just thought you'd like to know.
.Izzy. BRONZE said...
on Jul. 3 2011 at 9:15 pm
.Izzy. BRONZE, Broadview Heights, Ohio
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Very powerful. I'm glad you shared your story. You're a very talented writer(:
ShyWriting42 BRONZE said...
on Jul. 1 2011 at 7:07 pm
ShyWriting42 BRONZE, Mesquite, Texas
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 Your story is very moving, and the way you put it into words like that is amazing. (You remind me very much of a close friend:)) Great Writing!!! 
freeflow23 GOLD said...
on Jun. 28 2011 at 2:38 pm
freeflow23 GOLD, Durham, North Carolina
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This deserves to be published. I'm glad you weren't afraid to tell your story. This is my favorite poem of yours. Keep writing.
cuppycakepanda said...
on Mar. 24 2011 at 10:27 pm
cuppycakepanda, Dallas, Texas
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B3 I'M LOVED. BEST. FEELING. EVARRR. 

 

PS TEACH ME HOW TO WRITE POEMS. LIKE NAO. :I

littlelilith SILVER said...
on Mar. 17 2011 at 3:22 pm
littlelilith SILVER, Dallas, Texas
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OMFG!!!! YOU GOT A TEENINK!!! I love you so much, hun. I really appreciate everything you've done for me. Please never forget that!

Love MORE,

Your personal boot pump. xD

cuppycakepanda said...
on Mar. 7 2011 at 8:17 pm
cuppycakepanda, Dallas, Texas
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Dear Best Friend,

You are, without a doubt, the strongest person I've ever met. You've gone though so much, and I remember how hard that was for both of us. I thank God everyday for your health, and that you're still alive. I love you so much :)

Love,

Your Butt Monkey

<3

Expexted said...
on Feb. 24 2011 at 3:55 pm
This is amazing <3 i truly understand what your going through, and I love the way you wrote it. keep writing. Its amazing :)
littlelilith SILVER said...
on Feb. 15 2011 at 7:51 pm
littlelilith SILVER, Dallas, Texas
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Favorite Quote:
&quot;Your perspective may very well be the determining factor in whether you pass the test.&quot;

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Comments, please? :)