I used to think I was invincible
That I could make the sky fall with a single move
This was all just the lie of adolescent innocence
I used to think I would never die
But death’s doors have almost welcomed me once or twice
I used to think I was invincible
That was only a lie
Human beings as a whole are a fragile species
I’m no exception, how many times I’ve played with monsters
Thinking that id end up with no blemishes on my spotless conscious
The countless nights where all I could do was sit in my room and cry
Staring at the ceiling and thinking what did I do to my life
Am I a victim of my circumstances, they say addiction is pre-inclined
That the mental illnesses passed on just add on to the want to be high
To screw things up was my former purpose in life
To a certain degree I accomplished that but it’s no wonder
That I feel gone inside
Why I ended up thousands of miles away from my home
How I was so quick to end my own life
What became of me
With the only hope that I can fix the cracks in this shell of mine
Or am I just a dumb kid with his head so far up his own life
That he couldn’t see the love that was there
Where his real friends were
Why the life he was living was hurting everyone around him
How it was killing his family watching him turn into the same old monster
They had already seen in his mother and father
I wish I could’ve see past the misery that was always there
Maybe then I wouldn’t have ended up here
I used to think I was invincible
I’m far from that
Innocence is just a beautiful lie that veils our eyes
I wish I had kept mine