From day one I never understood you

One minute you were loving

The next i couldn't stand you

I can't even remember that much about you

But i just want you to know that I've always loved you

Maybe it's because I don't wanna remember the life i was handed

Protecting my little brother

Thinking i was helping you

Te amo mama but how could you

Is this what you wanted?

To give me everything but it never made me happy

I watched a bottle get thrown at your head

Do you remember that too?

I can't sleep at night

It's been like this for years

You just dismissed it saying it was the teenage years

I've wanted to die for just as many but your excuses still came

I asked for help and you dismissed it saying

"It's just adolescent angst"

You called me crying, asking why i hated you

You always made me choose someone's side

And you wondered why I wanted to commit suicide

I drank to forget everything that ever happened to me

I cut to let all my pain flow right out of me

I smoked to feel normal for once in my life

I swallowed those piles because I'm so sick of all of this