So rip my heart out through my wrists
The Pain can’t possibly get any worse
Than this and I’ve come to the realization
That once was will never be again

How hard do I have to try
How fast must I act
To get back to being
What I used to be
Before I ruined my life

On the outside
I will always appear
Just fine
But ill be losing it on the inside

No one will ever notice
No one will ever listen
No one will ever realize
Im slowly dying
While also losing my mind

It’s also my fault
I could have spoke of the troubles that ran through my mind
I could of said something but i’m embarrassed of what
They may say to me

I could say all I want to is to feel loved
But thats not true and all I would be
Doing is lying through my teeth
Im sick of lying about who I am

Why am I so embarrassed of what I’ve done in the past
Why am I trying to hide myself from the rest of my class
How do I blend in so well without saying much
I could say so many things that I regret

But the worst would have to be
Stepping away from the ledge