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January 3, 2009
By Christina BRONZE, Clifton, Virginia
Christina BRONZE, Clifton, Virginia
4 articles 0 photos 26 comments

The smile you see upon my face
and the friends and the words and the place
are perfect and happy.
Everyone loves.
Everyone lives.
No one knows.
No one knows that this smile is a pretense.
It crept upon me
and I don’t know how to make it go away.
I’m dying inside.
Not another day,
with those cries and lies
that I know are hidden behind our masks.
There are so many secret conflicts
with ourselves and everyone around us.
The smiles
are pretty,
all burdened
with pity.
Not another moment of these lies,
these troubles in disguise.
Disguise your problems, baby.
Maybe they’ll go away.
Maybe they’ll suffocate in the depths or your mind.
Maybe they’ll drown in the tears of your heart.
Maybe they’ll burn in the fires of your soul.
Maybe they’ll just
disappear.
Because maybe I love you,
and maybe you love me,
and maybe this is all for nothing,
and maybe we’re just a bunch of kids,
and maybe we’re dying to know what love is.
I want to know what love is.
Will you be my love?
And can I be yours?
And
what is this we’re fighting for?
We are
fighting for lies,
fighting for love,
fighting for another chance,
another chance to make our days bright,
another chance to make our lives right.
This will never be right.
We will never be alright.
There’s always something
or someone.
She’s doing this with him;
He said that about her.
What a life.
What a world.
Words are weapons and we wield them without care.
We slit the wrists with knives
as easily as we slit the throats with words.
Take a stab at me, baby.
I dare you.
I’m here waiting for you
with open arms and open eyes,
smile on my face and my heart in its place.
I’d take it all for you.
I’m taking it all for you.
Lay it all on me.
It’s all on me.
My smile is on
so nothing is wrong.
Nothing can be wrong with her.
She’s the sunshiny hippie lover
who dances through life with the flowers in her hair
and love at her side.
Nothing can be wrong with her.
But
something’s wrong with me,
because I want him to love me
and I want him to understand
and I want to be cool with her
and I want my boy to be a man
and I want my friends to love themselves
and I want everyone to know
and I want my tears to come bravely
and I want my lies to show.
You think we don’t know life
or problems.
We’re just a bunch of kids.
But that’s exactly our problem.
We’re just a bunch of kids
and we don’t know what to do about it
anyway.


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on Feb. 26 2010 at 7:40 pm
this is just like my friend and i (he is a guy and im a girl)!!ur poems are amazin too

on Feb. 12 2010 at 1:44 pm
Natalie4ya GOLD, Laredo, Texas
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Favorite Quote:
"To each his own" "Love is being stupid together"

wow the poem is a little all over the place but you really know how to lay your heart on the page. You have so much voice! i can litterly hear you screaming this in my ear!

GlitterFox said...
on Nov. 8 2009 at 9:16 am
Um... would it be sufficient to say "WOW"? This would make an incredible slam poem. While reading, I couldn't help but imagine you (even though I have no idea what you look like) caught in scarlet and turquoise spotlights, waving your arms and yelling into the microphone and stunning the audience into silence. It flows so well that I actually felt it go inside me. Melodramatic, yes, but true!

on Sep. 25 2009 at 2:29 pm
Ur fantastic at wat u do. Im just so amazed. u make me want to post how i feel. i can completley relate to everything u just said no joke at all. im just in complete shcok right now i cant even describe how this poem makes me feel.

on Sep. 25 2009 at 10:27 am
dylonmichael GOLD, El Dorado, Kansas
10 articles 3 photos 118 comments

Favorite Quote:
i have two one is "live life as if it were your last day on earth" and two is "never make some one your everything because when they leave you you have nothing"

OMG its so amazing

on May. 14 2009 at 1:37 am
MariaMarie DIAMOND, Washington Court House, Ohio
70 articles 0 photos 181 comments

Favorite Quote:
&quot;Life&#039;s a mountain on a beach&quot;-Unknown<br /> &quot;Will: This is either madness or brilliance. Sparrow: It&#039;s remarkable how often those two traits coincide.&quot;-Pirates of the Caribbean:Curse of the Black Pearl.

Love it- so true. Though I've found, Pushing it deeper and deeper inside yourself never helps- in fact, it made things so much worse! lol, i really do love this tho

on Apr. 22 2009 at 8:37 pm
nxexnxaxj BRONZE, Leominster, Massachusetts
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i luv it, ur great at what u do!

on Apr. 14 2009 at 3:43 am
That was fantastic. I think that you really captured the essence of school issues, as well as that of longing love, a very relatable and lamented subject. You might want to try and make them a little less ramble-y though, but what do I know? You are extremely talented, I will look for wok of yours in the future. :)

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on Apr. 5 2009 at 10:58 pm
ZoeR. GOLD, Redlands, California
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thIs one is awesome. i think its better than Jerk! and that one got published! But i guess its too long to be published... :)

on Apr. 5 2009 at 2:38 pm
phavi1995 SILVER, Sacramento, California
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I wish I could give you more than 5 stars . I think this poem is called Fallen Warrior is similar to this

on Mar. 26 2009 at 10:11 pm
Miss_Independent GOLD, Keller, Texas
18 articles 1 photo 5 comments

Favorite Quote:
A true friend is someone who thinks that you are a good egg even though he knows that you are slightly cracked.

amazing. LOVE IT! 5 STARS! :D:D:D

on Mar. 24 2009 at 3:07 pm
mamacassx33 BRONZE, Rotterdam, New York
4 articles 6 photos 22 comments
wow......i cant get over how talented you are....keep writing mabyee you couls comment some of my poems...give me some help...