I’m plunged
Inside a dark abyss
No way of escape
No ladder, no rope
To pull me up
Just a blank
Nothingness
In which oppression lays
Sink,
Sink deeper
Into the murky waters
Of insanity
I’m one person
Torn into many
Happy, for now
Sorrow for later
Say one thing,
Upset me with simplicity
And I burst
Into a furious
Beast
My grasp on attitude
Lost in the depths of
This madness
Sadness
Lies
Weave through a mind
Burdened by thoughts
Weighed down by
Subtle complexity
I wish,
Yearn
To be positive
Every minute,
Every second
Of this passing life
Drained by irrational
And obtuse thoughts
Order, cleanliness, perfection
Mending words into monsters
I loathe to hear
Thinking wrong
Wrong!
It’s not right
How I see everything
Black and white
No grey in between
Look at me,
Gaze into these remorseful eyes
And peer into
The person, the animal
With no reasoning
But,
In this lonely,
Cold and dreary cage
I pace and wander
Voices screaming, voices talking
In my head
“You suck!”
“Worthless!”
“Useless!”
“Nothing!”
Am I?
Am I nothing?
But a shadowed existence
Living only by the tender love
Of others?
Clinging to this unstable
Body
Torn by
Incoherent thoughts
Racing through my fragile mind
I break easily,
Die slowly
And yet,
Live on
As there are goals, determination
Hidden, flickering in these eyes
Damaged by depression
Am I smart?
Am I right?
Do I need this?
Do I not?
Maybe
Reach,
And grasp the hands
Waiting for you
At the brim of this endless
Turmoil
And wait,
Complete each day
By day
And maybe,
Maybe
This raging storm
Will calm
Not leave,
But settle
As, in reality
It will never,
Truly
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