Do you ever wish that you never did something that you did? Like break your parents trust one to many times? Or break all the promises you made to your friends? It sucks doesn't it? And it's hard getting back that trust. But that's your fault. You made the decisions. You decided to lie and keep things that you knew you should have told them. But you never did. Then they find out. And all Hell breaks loose. You try to make it right, but nothing seems to work. You can never fully gain their trust back. And they think you stopped cutting but what they don't know is that you never did. If they continue their fights and arguments you're going to get worse. If people at school don't stop bullying you and saying that they care, when in all reality they don't. You know something is going to happen. You say you better. And sometimes you believe it. But there are those days where you got to hide all your emotions. And pretend you are OK. But you know you never will be. But pretending is nice isn't it? Helps you escape the world every now and again. And you stopped eating entirely. Telling your parents you're just not hungry at the moment. Or say you already ate. And you hardly sleep. Getting 2 hours of sleep max. You start to fail your classes. And you try to get your grades up, but what's the point? It's not going to work. They're just going to fall down again. Your only 2 friends are worried about you. And they tell you that they will do you school work and homework. You just shrug. Not caring anymore. Not listening anymore. You are not here anymore. Your mind is up in the clouds. You wish this never happened. You wish you never lied. You wish that you kept your promises and never broke their trust. You think to yourself maybe you are better off away from here. In a place where they won't find you. You make a plan that night to run away. And you write them a letter saying just this;

"Dear mom and dad,

I'm sorry for all the things I did. I'm sorry for all the promises I broke. For tearing up our family. For breaking our love apart. I promise you this though, that you won't find. And that I don't want you to find me. I am tired of the fighting and everything else. I am tired of you blaming me for everything. And I understand that I have done a lot. But I didn't do everything. I didn't make you broke. I didn't lose a job. Those things are your fault. I never killed my little brother. I wasn't even home when that happened. And yet you still blame me for those things. That car crash dad was you. You did it on purpose. You told me so. Saying that you never wanted kids in the first place. And mom you never cared about me either. Every time I tried to tell you I was raped by your brother you never listened. You just brushed it off like it was nothing. I WAS RAPED AND YOU DIDN'T GIVE A SHIT!!! How could you? I thought you loved me...but I guess I was wrong. I should have never looked up to you. I should have done this a long time ago. I'm running away and never coming back. And don't look for me. And just forget about me.

Sincerely,

Annabelle

You back your things. But you don't go tonight. You want to say good bye to your friends first. And tell them what you're going to do. And that you will keep in touch. And that you will never forget them. The next day you're at school you're really nervous. But you know you have to say good bye. You waiting for a text message from each of them telling you that they are you. And when you get those you start to cry. These two people are the only people who have cared about you since the day you were reaped in second grade. And know your leaving them. They come up to you and see you crying. Now is the time. You look at them both. Jackson and Justin the twins you have known your entire life. You want to say something. But you hand them the letter instead. You look away watching people pass. When their done they hand it back. Tears in their eyes. And they say together that they are going with you. And you understand, because you have seen what they have been through. You know what their life is. And they know what yours is too. And they never want to leave your side. It's like having your little brother again. But different. They look like him a lot to. And you start crying again. Remembering your sweet and innocent 5 year old brother. With blonde hair and green eyes. They hug you. Knowing who you're thinking about. And they know that you are going to need them to survive out there. So you're glad they are coming. You ditch school with them and head over to their house. They write a letter to their parents as well and pack everything. Then you go to yours. Knowing that nobody is home, you grab you bags and set the letter on your mom's bed. Then you leave. And like you and the twins said, you are never coming back home.