JEALOUSY
A weed that grows in your heart
It starts out small, almost accidently
A stray thought that you brush aside
But it returns every time you see him with her
It is then the weed grows,
Consuming you from the inside out
Its vines grow into your ears
And from there it whispers lies
As its roots tear apart the trust
You once felt for him

This weed takes over your mind
Until every time you close your eyes
You see him holding her close
And watch as she kisses the beautiful lips
That you have kissed a thousand times before

It is then you become afraid
For you lose whether you are right or wrong
If you are right, you lose him to another woman
If you are wrong, you lose him because you couldn’t trust him
And you try to pull the weed out of your mind
Out of your heart
But you can’t

WHEN WE SAID FOREVERMORE
Words cut deep
And pain the heart
Like acid
on an open wound

We have said
Plenty of these
When the world of us
Went up in flames

And now that the smoke
Has cleared
And the embers
Have grown cold

I think of the nights
When we whispered
Into the darkness
Forever more
 
MASKED
A beautiful mask
Decorated with an intriguing design
With a pleasant smile on its plastic lips
Is what you always wear
You smile, you laugh
You go on with your elaborate act
Thinking that no one sees
Who you are behind the mask
 
THE WIND
Your heart is the wind
Continuously changing direction
Unable to make up its mind
Whether to be gentle or hostile

Your heart roams
The very surface of the earth
Searching for something that would steady
Your constant movement
Something that will free you
From your wandering ways

But once something stills you, look!
You are not who you are meant to be
So you leave in a gust of furry
To continue searching the world
For something you really
Don’t want to find
 
HIS HEART
His heart
Is in constant battle
Two armies lie within it
One good, the other bad

Every day they battle
Giving their owner no peace
He cries out in confusion
But no one seems to hear

The knight’s horses leap and run
Trampling those of the other side
Yet no one has won

Each soldier challenges another
Both willing to fight to the death
But no one triumphs
Is this war in vain?

He paces his room like a cadged beast
Unable to decide what is wrong
And what is right
His heart gives him no rest
And his mind gives him no peace
He waits for the day
He will forever sleep
 
IF I COULD BE
As the rain pours down on me
I know I have never been so alone
I want to cry out, scream at the top of my lungs
Anything to fight off this emptiness that is seeping through my heart
The preacher preaches that you’re still out there; somewhere
But if that’s the case then why am I still here?
Nothing feels the same now that you’re gone

I wish that I could take your place
And be the one that watches you live out your life
There would be no tears left for me to cry
You’ve always known that I’m not afraid to die

The roses are now red with your blood,
The sky is dark with my pain
The very heavens are weeping with us at your loss
I am surrounded by, empty faces that pity me
But you know I will never let them see the turmoil of my heart
The only thing that lets me know that I’m still here
Why am I still here?

If I could be your angel you would still be here
I would wipe away your tears
And teach you how to fly above this pain
You would know that you were not left here in vain
I would show you the beauty of life
Hidden beneath the veil of strife
Maybe then you would see
You never had to leave
 
SHADOWS AND LIGHT

Shadows are all I see
Darkness has conquered even me
Oh why can’t I even breathe?

You stole my last breath when you left
My heart is gone
I’m full of emptiness
Let me hide in the victorious darkness
There is nothing left for me…

Is it true that after the darkest night there is always a dawn?
A bright shining light, if only I could hold on
You left me with nothing but broken promises
No thread of hope to hang on to
But still you say, “Stay strong?”

You always wanted to be a hero
The fighting good surrounded by evil
An honorable warrior
One whom always is there in time of need
Look at this mess you’ve made,
Shattering me to pieces
And when I need someone there the most
All I have are shadows to keep me company
Where have you gone,
My destruction, my hero?
Who are you anymore

Whisper whisper, the shadows in my heart
Maybe giving up isn’t so hard
Let the darkness envelop me, I surrender

Stop.
Who are you to destroy me like this?
Crush me then leave
This the hero that you want to be?
I am stronger now,
Look, the darkness is leaving.
Never give up, never back down
I once trusted you and called your friend
But not now

I may be surrounded by darkness
But I am the light
I will not give in
I will always fight
And thought you have knocked me down
I will rise up
Higher than where I was before
You cannot hurt me again
I once was caged but now I’m free
No one can touch me
So good luck catching me
If you grow continence and regret what you have done
Look, I have flown away
Already too far gone
To even remember the reason why I stayed
Dawn is breaking.

Oh, what a fool I was
Thinking that you loved me
To believe in your lie
And actually love you
I won’t make that mistake again
I need to remain
Free
 
DARK NIGHT TO DAWN
Light is gone
Darkness has risen
Enveloping the sky
In an empty black canvas
The fog hides
The compassionate light
Of moon
And stars

Gloom of the night
Oh, what do you hide
Within your heavy cloak?
What evil deeds,
What planned disasters,
Happen when no one can see?
Tell me
What are your secrets,
Oh dark night?
What do you hide?

Look, your time has run out
The first light of dawn is coming,
Conquering your darkness
Oh, is it ever so bright
Your secrets,
Gloomy darkness,
You may keep
For the light has come
And we can now
See
 
TWISTED CONCIENCE
I am in the secrets
You will never tell
The black part of your soul
That you know too well

I am in the actions
You will never speak of
In your story
Of deep regret and shame
I am the thing
You cannot name

I am the shadow
Of your very being
The part of yourself
You cannot hide
No matter how hard
You try

I am your voice of doubt
Your bringer of pain
The very source
Of all of your shame

I am the root of all things
That tortures your heart with remorse
Of actions you will never forgive yourself for
You will never forget
You will never forget
Me


 
THE GHOST OF MEMORIES PAST
Though it is hidden
It is not gone
From a distance
It watches me
Seeing my every weakness
Knowing all of my faults

The ghost of memories past
Is subtle, gentle
Whenever it causes pain

It waits until you’re alone
To come out of its hiding place
To remind you of what you once had
That is now gone

It softly whispers
What you’ve been trying to forget
And seeps into your thoughts
It walks through your dreams
And is the source
Of many sleepless nights

The more you try to ignore it
The more it is there
Its presence consuming
What makes you happy
Until you are nothing
But an empty shell
Of a human
Reaching out to what is lost
Clinging on to the memories

You’ll never be free
You’ll never be free

There you sit
With tears streaming
From your eyes
As you feel the ghost returning
It does not have to be this way
You realize
It does not have to be like this

Feeling you getting stronger
The ghost of memories
Takes full form before you
And you see everything
You have lost
In color

You remember the joy
You once had with him
His laughing eyes
And his grin
You remember how his hands
Felt upon your skin

And the many promises
You have told him
Again leave your lips
And you watch
As they fall broken
Upon the floor

You remember when
The shadows took over his eyes
When the smiles faded
And the joy died
The day when your heart
Became forever scarred
With teardrops

After you see
The past’s story
Unfurled before your eyes
You realize
Only you have the power
To become free
Of the ghost of memories

After having one last cry
You look at the ghost
Deep into its empty eyes
Watching it shatter
Into a million pieces
The empty dream
Broken beyond
Recovery

Its chains have lost its hold on you
And as you rub your wrists
You realize that you are now free
Free from the ghost
The ghost of memories past

And all that is left to do is
Forgive

WHEN DREAMS SHATTER

When dreams shatter
Whether you’re old or young, it doesn’t matter
It rips and tears within you
It hurts, no matter what you do
Life without a purpose
Seems ever so worthless
Until you happen to find
Something so precious and kind
Teaching you to find yourself anew
A new dream, precious and true
 

IN
In the dirt full of death and decay
A flower grows and blooms
Despite the ugliness
That it came from

In the sky full of darkness
And emptiness
Stars shine
And pierce holes in
The darkness
That envelops it

Amongst the rubble
And dust
Of a fallen nation
A new nation is born
Mightier than the first

Where pain and sorrow
Clutches a heart
With its clawed fingers
Something rises
From deep within us
Hope
Hope that
Someday
Somehow
Things will get better
For where there is destruction
And darkness
Beauty and light rises
As if brought out of nowhere
 
WHEN IT RAINED FIRE
The rain is gentle
Kind
It delicately kisses the ground
Breathing life and beauty
Into the land

But the land grew ungrateful
And impatient
So it cried out to the sky
Demanding more rain
To make its surface bloom
For it wanted beauty
Greater than the moon

The sky grew angry
At the conceited land
And answered the lands cry
With a dark and cloudy sky

The clouds covered the very heavens
Hiding its soft and gentle light
As it prepared to give the land
Exactly what it deserved

In the hush of the night
Licks of fire
Fell from the sky
It light up the sky
And was a breathtaking sight
Looking like a million fallen stars
Appearing fragile
And beautiful

The rain poured down
Igniting the earth
In one huge flame
And the fire was beautiful
Despite the pain

The sky lit up
And the clouds changed colors
From grey to red
Looking like a grand sunset
Stretched out above
The weeping land
Who lost all it once was
To be more beautiful than the rest
Even the life
Buried deep
Within its chest

And after the flames
Died down
And when the earth
Was still aglow
The sky opened up
And gave the desolated mass
Water

When the steam and smoke
Finally cleared away
And when the clouds left
For another day
Out of the ashes
The earth was reborn
A child of destruction
Full of strength, power,
And beauty
 

MANY
Many faceless people
Wander in and out of our lives
Unnoticed

But others come in
And rip and tear out our hearts
Leaving us in a bloody mess
Not caring what happens
As long as they have gotten
What they wanted

Yet others go about
Judging and shaming you
Based upon a glance
They laugh and point
At the situation you’re in
They whisper and gossip amongst themselves
Saying that you brought it upon yourself
When they have not the slightest clue
What your story is, what you’ve been through

So I thank god for the precious few
With kind hearts and compassionate spirits
They go out of their way
To lend a helping hand
When we need it the most
Just by being there
They improve our lives so much
Wanting nothing
In return
 
DON’T READ MY GESTURES
Don’t read my gestures
Or listen to the words
Coming from my mouth
If you really want to see
What’s happening with me

Watch my eyes, stranger
Can you not feel
The pain that my heart conceals
And without knowing my tale of woe
Do you not feel like you know me?
Do you not hear the screams
And the whimpering
Inside of me?

I can see that you’ve had
Some trials of your own
I can see your pain
I can feel your woes

Tell me your story, stranger
And I will tell you mine

Let us be weak together
For a moment
So that we can truly be strong
And let go
Of what is wrong
CARRY ME DOWN SOFTLY
Carry me down softly
For I have no where else to go
My heart is crushed
And my spirit is low
I just want to feel
Less alone

Your arms surround me
And your heartbeat sooths me
You raise me up
To a place higher than I was before

You free me from the memories
That has tormented me for so long
You shed light
On what might be

Because of you I have grown strong
And know who I was all along
Yes, it is you who saved me
From the one
Who is but a memory
 
THIS IS WHERE OUR STORY BEGINS
This is where our story begins
A friendly smile, a soft touch
Our future is full of promise
And of mystery

Nothing feels wrong
Nothing out of place
But still I must wonder
What will happen in our story?
Will we be each other’s heroes
A tale with a happy ending?
Or will this be a sad chronicle
Leaving readers with tear stained faces?

Remember love
This story is ours to write
What ever trial comes our way
We can mold the future we want
Around it with our own hands
We can weave a tale
Of pain and sorrow
Or create a story
That shows love’s strength
And has a happily ever after
It is up to us

So my love
This is where our story begins
Your hand in mine
As we hold each other close
As if we will never go
This is our
Once upon a time
 
YOUR
I don’t want to be your star
Something unreachable and distant
I want to be closer to you than that

I don’t want to be your moon
Something ever changing
I’d like to think I’m consistent
In my ways

I don’t want to be your sunset
Something that is only there
For a few minutes of each day
I want to be there for you more than that

I don’t want to be your ocean
Something dark and full of secrets
I’d like you to know me better than that

I don’t want to be your mountain
Something that is a struggle to be around
A continuations climb
I want to be easier to be around
Not a challenge like that

I don’t want to be your tree
Something unmovable
And stationary
I’d like to be able to go
Wherever I please

I don’t want to be your flower
Something delicate and soft
I’d like to think I’m stronger than that

I want to be your shadow
Something that no matter what
Will always be there
When you need it
 
THE SUNLIGHT
The sunlight doesn’t rest on your skin
Rather it dances on your eyelashes
And strolls along your cheeks
It plays in your hair
And lounges on your nose
As you sleep beneath its warmth
Looking innocent and childlike
 
I WON’T
I won’t stop loving you
Even when times get rough
And things don’t turn out
The way we had expected

I won’t stop loving you
Even after mistakes are made
And hearts have been broken
Even if all we can feel is pain

I won’t stop loving you
No matter how much time passes
Whether you are present or absent
My love for you will remain the same

I won’t stop loving you
Even after the very heart
Within my ribs stops beating
And long after I have taken
My last wavering breath
I will continue loving you
Even past death

I won’t stop loving you
Even after the sky
Comes crashing down
And eternities have past
I will keep on loving you
Far beyond the end of time
Yes, my love for you will never die
 
CAN ONE?
Can one forever live in a moment?
Or make a dream last for all eternity?
Oh, why is this memory only lent?
Why is happiness but temporary?

This instant, this feeling, must it pass away?
Your touch, your smile, does it have to fade?
To keep what is fleeting, is there a way?
Of memories, can time persist to raid?

Oh, time will continue its race ever more
And this moment will leave us so swiftly
So do not forget, to you I implore
Do think of this moment so tenderly
And never forget what we once called ours
When nothing was out of reach, even stars