It's only been five days since it happened and with every passing moment it gets tougher and tougher for me. I've lost my sister, not in the way you might think, but in a way that makes my chest tighten every time the thought pops into my head. My best friend, the person I felt like I could trust anything with, was gone; completely out of my life, all because of a stupid argument.  Every picture of us, gone. Everything had completely changed and I didn't know how to react to this change. I no longer had a best friend. I no longer had a sister. Everything around me and everything in my life had begun to change and I had no clue how I was going to make it through this. Every emotion was mixing in a way I couldn't describe even if I wanted to. Fear, anger, confusion, and sadness had seemed to find their ways to the surface, and this feeling is so overwhelming that I feel like I'm suffocating, drowning even. I'm drowning in a sea of my own emotions and I keep hoping and praying that everything will be okay but with every waking moment I can't help but dwell on the past and think of the things that have happened. Every laugh we shared, every heartbreak we've endured, all of the late nights, they were nothing but memories now. I'll make it through this somehow, that I know for sure.