Friends fight all the time, families have their arguments, and some kids meet depression. “It is estimated that about 10 to 15 percent of children and teens are depressed at any given time” (Psych Central).This year went by so fast. It had gone by so fast that I almost forgot the beginning of it. There is drama. I wish it didn’t exist. Although if it didn’t, then how might our lives play out. This is the year when I become depressed. I guess it's a way of life almost. It happens to the best of us. Friends leave, you begin to block out your family, and you have no one but yourself. The end of it all. But sometimes there’s a lift in your life, a way out. You need to catch that bull by the horns and tame it. This way you won't have to fight with friends, argue with your family, and push through depression.
   

My seventh grade year was full of drama, friends, and fun. But it all can disappear in a second. That’s what happened too. A few weeks before a seventh grade, two day field trip my best friend and I decided to become more than friends. we are both girls so yes that meant that we are different. She is lesbian and I am bisexual. She is my first girlfriend. But I was a negative person, we ended up not talking to each other. I decided to break up with Alice. She took it more as a painful *I never actually liked you* and that’s the complete opposite of what I said. I had said that I didn’t think it could work out. With that she ignored me the rest of the year as well as Violet. They left me dead in the dirt. While they rode off, on a horse. While I layed there, staring at the blue sky with its fluffy clouds and bright sun. But then it suddenly turned a deep gray all the fluffy clouds joined together to form a deep, cold, and grey shielded sky. The warmth of the sun lost the battle against the grey cold shield of the sky. It had no chance.
    

I began to close myself off from the people around me. But I tried to be as happy as I could around my family. I often went over to my favorite grandparents’ house and relax with them. Since they were my favorite people, to be around. But it was still hard to keep a smile on my face. Often I think about ditching school and walking home. Almost every day after school I hold back my tears. At this point in time I had no friends but my music. I found that bull and I tamed it with everything I had. While in return, the one thing that could change my mood. Music was like God giving me the largest chunk of life he could. Still to this day music is my one true love.
    

While the days in school went by, I kept myself closed in and always faked a smile. I don’t think any of the teachers actually noticed my enclosure but at the same time I think they could tell there was some kind of terrible mold growing on me. I went from quiet in sixth grade to loud and crazy in seventh. As it was cutting close to the end of the year I kept asking, begging my parents to let me skip the rest of the school year due to alice, Violet, and me having all of our classes together. In class I do my work and hear them talk terrible stuff about me behind my back. Literally, they sit behind me or next to me and say the meanest comments. Once I brought it up to my close grandma and her advice was to act super nice to them and look happy. I did a great job throughout the day until 6th hour Alice said a nasty, rude, and mean thing to me so in a result of being fed up with them and also having a ginger anger problem background I completely blew up at her. She of course acted like it never happened and that I said nothing so I began to cry. Right in class...IN CLASS!
    

The rest of the school year was like that. I soon became used to it. Now summer was a much different story. Well not exactly, I guess. During the summer I was quiet and had no friends. While sitting in my room one day, I went on an app I had on my phone. It's a silly app with tests that you can take. I took a test called *are you depressed?* I tapped on it and began the test. They were simple questions and I sped past them pretty fast the ending result showed a positive. I sort of knew it from the beginning, when I left home to see my grandparents as much as I could. This silly app kind of made me snap out of the dream of me being happy. It is obvious that I am depressed now. Everyone can tell now. I don't try to hide it now. Days and weeks go by and I am more moody, aggressive, quiet, and distant.
    

Still I have music by my side. It really helps me to get throughout the painful days. Then one day, on the road with my family to go see my aunt and uncle. It was a song that changed my perspective on life. The song is called “hold on til May”,by Pierce the Veil. The rest of the day was not like the others. This time I actually enjoyed it. After that day my summer was warm instead of cold. I contacted Alice and told her I was super sorry and that I didn't mean to hurt her feelings in anyway and that I wanted to be her friend again. Although she agreed, I could tell she wasn't exactly sure if she could completely forgive me yet. I invited her over and we had a great time we still liked each other a lot and agreed to give the relationship another try after a few months. Since that summer, depression has only worried me a few times but I have learned to clear it out with family and friends. I am still friends with Alice now and care about her like a girlfriend. Although we are not together, I know she probably like us to keep the still liking each other information on the down low.. The summer ended with me being the happiest I have ever felt but the beginning of a new year is yet to know of.