Why, why does this happen, the yelling and screaming, and loss of someone that I really didn’t know, even though she made me? It’s not fair what I have to go through just to see my own father. I live with neither of my parents, my mother left forever and my father is working. Is it even fair, to live with anyone to call mom or dad? Is it fair to not have the warm hugs of my mother and the over protecting dad? Its like it was all my fault, at least that’s what my grandparents say. I feel like everything I do in that house is wrong, every time I turn around there she is screaming at me. At least she does not threaten me, even though sometimes I feel like it. I’m sent to counseling class even though I always tell her I’m not going to tell them anything.

He hurts me to, not physically, but mentally. He says all this bad stuff that isn’t true about my family, he says these things that seem to hurt more then ever before. I try I know I try, and I just keep being put down not just by them but also by my father to. He says he’s coming and then he stays longer. I’m always so excited to see him, after that he leaves again. I feel like I cant trust anyone anymore, just because of what I have gone through, all the pain and sorrow I have gone through. I guess they just don’t know how much it scars me. Every new day is a chance for a new beginning.