I miss Johnny. I never dreamed of being an only child but now that my brother, john, is in college that is how it feels. I think so highly of Johnny, he is so nice to me. All of my friends fight with their brothers constatly, not me. I realize how fortunate I am to get along with my sibling.

In the fall of 2007 Johnny began his first semester at Niagara university in Buffalo, New York. I never thought a 2 hour 30 minute car ride would keep me from having a relationship with him. Sometimes I feel as though we never knew each other. When I think about how our relationship has failed it really upsets me. It is so hard to not have him around the house and to only talk to him once a week. I know what you’re thinking, I should call him more, but I always feel like I’m a bother to him if I call too much. Everyone warned me of how empty my house would feel and how different things would be after he was gone. I guess I never believed them.