I stare in secret amazed at her beauty. I wonder how she doesnt notice me. She is in fact the most perfect person. In contrast i'm an egomanical narsistic and I think the world revolves around me. Confuseing how we could ever by some slight chance ever be together. Often Iask myself the question why. Why am I so afraid to show my feelings. Why do I hude who I really am. I was all of the selfcentered qualitys I listed above untill I met her My personality changed compleatly. Scared to talk I mask my feelings. Why am I so afraid. I'm not afraid of rejection no i've been through it before it doesn't effect me. When it come to rejection my heart is an empty glass. I think i'm afraid because I don't know how. How to feel emotions. I've hidden my feelings in writing so long i wouldn't know how to express them without a paper and pen. Her eyes are full of life. Yet mine are pale and dull. i wouldn't know how to ask. She cast a spell on me and I cant break free.

Why me?