I hate him. How could the man I was supposed to be with every day for the rest of my life choose to leave his family for months,  to only put himself in danger? He left our daughter and I to do nothing but worry every single day if he is still alive or not. How selfish of him, to put all of this excessive stress on us. He didn’t even think about how his life changing decision could affect our entire family.
He told us that he would be leaving on Valentine’s day in the year of 2016. I broke down into tears right in front of our daughter. He brought out the emotional side of me that I never show to anyone. He asked us to send him letters once in awhile and to Skype him at least once a week. The next time we will see him is on Christmas Day. 314 days of pure sadness until we see him once again.
I miss her so much. Day 137 without seeing my wife and beautiful daughter. I hope they understand I decided to do this to protect everyone I love and care about. It is my duty to stop people from trying to kill us. Out here, I have seen things that no man on Earth should ever see in a lifetime. I hear the loud booming bangs that is connected to bursting blue bombs. The bombs take an arm or two away from us as if they were taking candy away from a baby. I hope I make my baby proud. I want nothing less than for her to love and support me for the choice that I have made.
Ever since he got there, his Skype has been down and no mail is being delivered to that area. I miss him so much. I regret all that I have said before about not loving him because of this decision. I just want my husband back, safe and sound under the roof that we both worked so hard for. He just missed her 2nd birthday. One less birthday he will ever be able to celebrate with her. Every night I have been praying that he is not in any type of pain. I hope he knows how proud I am and I am beyond excited to see him in 77 days. 
50 days until I hopefully see my family again. A huge group of people came over to our area and are ready to kill us. I am pretty sure we can hold them off until I can go back home to the two loves of my life. Each night I pray that I will make it back in one piece, just to prove that I made the right decision.
18 days until our daughter and I see him. I can not wait until he sees how big our little girl has gotten over the past 314 days! Having him come home is going to be the greatest Christmas gift any little girl has ever received. She has the greatest, heroic man to look up to in her life. The look of her face is going to be priceless. I swear these 18 days are going to go by as slow as a snail.
2 days left until she thinks she will see me. The enemy has got to me and are holding me captive against my will. These types of people show no mercy whatsoever. I hope my family understands how sorry I am. I hope they will forgive me for all the pain I will soon cause them. I love them so much and cannot believe this is happening.
Christmas Day is finally here! He is running a little late but, he should soon be here…*Ring Ring*. That must be him calling our phone to tell us he is going to be just a little late.