Comparing yourself to others is not only extremely unhealthy, it is hindering to self progression. Until recently, this is something I have struggled with. Growing up, I could see I was different, not only physically, but mentally as well. No one seemed to understand or relate to me. I had plenty of friends that I genuinely liked and got along with; nevertheless, I did not feel a true connection with anyone. I had no one to let my guard down with and just talk candidly for hours about nothing and everything. Feeling this way, often times made me isolate myself and naturally, that led to observing and comparing.

Constantly striving to change yourself is exhausting. In some cases, change is good and necessary. However, when nothing is particularly wrong, change is not needed and essentially, all it did was make it more difficult for me to find myself. I had noticed that certain qualities were idolized or sought after. I had spent so much time and effort altering my appearance, actions, and emotions to imitate said qualities, I lost who I was. In fact, I do not think I even knew who that was. That was the problem. In that instant, I knew I had to change.

My progress is something I am truly proud of. Upon entering high school, a time when children feel especially judged and insecure, I did everything in my power not to fall into that entrapment. I had been feeling that way most of my life and I was done. Initially, I could not seem to shake old habits of comparing and putting myself down for not measuring up, but I did not stop trying. That perseverance is what ultimately got me to where I am today. I focused on building new relationships and creating genuine connections with people. This was a great foundation to help me feel more secure and involved. In time, I began to stop comparing myself to others and started gearing my attention toward the person who needed it the most, me.

As I grow older, I hope to grow as a person and I believe I can do so at Penn State. While visiting Penn State, I get this overwhelming feeling of welcome. It feels like home: comforting and inviting. Everyone has so much pride in the school and in each other. There is such a large foundation of Penn State alumni who still support one another years after they graduate. This is especially enticing to me because I still have not truly found that sense of belonging but I know I am well on my way; Penn State can and will grant me that. I am unsure of what it is exactly I plan to do with the rest of my life, but considering there are hundreds of reputable majors offered at Penn State, I am certain I will find one that is right for me.